have had a day of listening to music i have ignored for too long. such as the paperchase. good times.
at some point i am going to have to realise i have done no work all holiday and that i should do some, but as i am leaving home on saturday to go back to cam via a wedding this is an unrealistic goal.
i am not looking forward to next term:
exams
seeing lucy
trying not to punch hugh
exams
other people's exam stress
the fact that i am single and will therefore probs have to make slightly more effort.
the idea of "putting myself out there" scares me. secretly i am a wuss. whilst i do not want a relationship, and will be told off by many parties if i consider one, i do need to have a quick thing with someone else. apparently they say you have to get under someone to get over someone. i do not want a relationship and i do not want a one night stand. this is an ammendment to the original post as it has been highlighted that maybe this is a somewhat paradoxical desire. there seems to be a lot of contradictions in my feelings at the moment
i want someone else but i don't want a relationship OR a one night stand
i hate her but at the same time i just want her to tell me this was all a terrible mistake and for us to be together again.
there are probably countless more contradictary and/or hypocritical things i have said and done but i can;t be arsed with listing them all, that would be a bit depressing...
over and over and over and over
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2 comments:
1) have you fixed your timezone?
2) don't punch anyone. it's not a Good Idea.
3) I'm not sure I believe your theory. 'Quick things', apart from the one night variety, will only lead to more trouble.... as evidenced.
4) GET WITH GEOGRAPHY INSTEAD
5) like a monkey with a miniature cymbol
1. no technology means i can't be arsed
2. i know. i won't really.
3. i know. shut up.
4. riiiiight....
5. exactly.
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